The beauty of healing

 The beauty of healing is that you get mental clarity .In a way healing clear your vision and you can see things outside your pain .When you are in a survival mode or you haven't healed yet everything is just blurry .Every thought ,action and words are a means of survival .Every word and and action towards you became a sword or an attack 

Being in a survival mode somehow has a way of making one highly alert ,but not in a good way .You overanalyze every thought ,action and words coming out of your mouth and towards you and jump in to the wrong conclusions .when you in a survival mode even your creator can be seen as a potential enemy .It clouds your judgement completely .My unhealed version had me overreacting and overexplaining myself .It had me in a defensive mode 

if you do not  really understand this bunch of nonsensical words i wrote above ,understand that there is beauty in healing .Healing does look good on you ,joy does loook good on you .It is time for you to truly live and not just survive and you deserve to live Lori .You deserve all this beautiful things happening in your life 

Everything that ever happened to you does not define you ,it is not your identity nor does it determine your destiny .You are not used goods ,You were not created because God was out of options nor are you here to add on numbers .You have a purpose and you are loved and seen and heard .I love you 

Allow yourself to heal ,there is beauty in it .

I know again you are probaly thinking this does not make sense .....I just wanted to assure you that you will heal and you will thrive and you will bloom and flourish  ok 

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